Remembering my son’s death, and yet iGet2Give

I was invited to “I Get 2 Give” dinner  by Desiree Weber. Christmas is a hard time for my family since we lost our 10 year Matt to a horrific car accident on I-540 2 years ago. We moved here right after for my husband’s job. Lori & Desiree have taken me under their wing. God’s provision.

Honestly, I came to the dinner thinking I’m ready to be in a large crowd celebrating Christmas. As I sat in my seat I had to hold back tears. I look at the audience & see smiling faces & inside my heart is breaking. Then, I hear the girl’s testimony of all that she’s been through & I see how selfish I am of only thinking of myself. I had to confess that to the Lord.

I was given a backpack! I’m praying for what to do with it & feel that I will donate it before next year’s school starts. I go on still praying who to give it to. The Lord spoke to my heart & by NO accident did I receive a boy’s backpack. God reminded that in my Matt’s backpack the last day he came home from school before he went to be with the Lord, was his spelling test. All the words were “ea” words. He had to write a sentence with as many of the words as he could.

Matt’s sentence read: “I want to go to heaven because there is no death or disease in heaven”. WOW! That little boy didn’t know that within a few short hours he’d be there.

As I was praying for whom to give this backpack to it came to me to give it to a 10 year old little boy. Again the Lord keeps reminding of the sentence Matt wrote & stuffed in his little backpack that that is where he wanted to be. A gift from God we’ll never forget.

Thank for an evening of gift giving to others, yet I received as well.

Blessings
Dana Russell